The Changes I’ve Been Making

As my mother always says to me “life marches on”, and so it does. I have continued my weight loss. I’m now at around 145 pounds lost overall. I don’t really recognize myself in the mirror, or in pictures for that matter. It’s a joy to be able to fit into clothes that I’ve never dreamed of wearing in my adult life.

BJ and I went to our first hockey game a few weeks ago. It was in an arena where we had been to a concert several years ago. At the time I was around 300, and I didn’t fit comfortably in the seat. As I sat down in my seat to watch the game I literally asked BJ, “are these the same chairs that were here when we went to the concert?” Indeed they were, and I had plenty of room on each side of me. It was a comfortable fit.

This is a never-ending journey. I still have a lot of work to do. I need to be working on my exercise and eating habits.

I went to a plastic surgeon a few weeks ago to inquire about getting the excess skin on my abdomen removed. Some of the surgery may be covered by insurance, but the part of my abdomen that bothers me the worst is not going to be covered. I am not sure when I will be able to get this surgery done, but I am going to do my dead-level best to make it happen. I already have so much more self-confidence that I’ve ever had in my whole life.





Let’s Start…

Comparison Shot

This comparison shot doesn’t show where I really began. I’ve been obese most of my life, and in 2008 I decided to get a gastric bypass at the weight of 290 after losing weight from 330. It could’ve been the worst possible time in my life to get such a life-changing surgery. I was diagnosed shortly after with bipolar disorder. I did of course at the time lose weight. There’s no way I couldn’t with my insides rearranged. I quickly lost weight, and in early 2009 I had lost 91 pounds. I wasn’t eating the way I was supposed to, and then I slowly started gaining weight. Before I knew what was going on, I was back to 335 pounds. I had suffered thru several significant life problems including my inability to keep working due to the bipolar, struggles with the side effects of medication, not taking care of myself at all, and self-punishment for the things I felt I was a failure at. My husband, BJ and I decided to become vegan in 2012 and eventually settled on becoming vegetarians in the end. We continue to be vegetarians to this day. I must say it has drastically improved our bloodwork levels especially our cholesterol numbers. I did try to start exercising in 2014. I joined the local hospital’s health center. I jumped in full force by exercising with excessive vigor. I ended up injuring my foot, which eventually required a foot surgery with a long recovery. I finally had decided I had to get to where I needed to be health and weightwise in early January 2015. I joined the online version of Weight Watchers. I slowly started losing weight, and after losing quite a bit of weight I decided in the middle of 2016 to stop paying for monitoring weight loss and downloaded the MyFitnessPal app for my iPhone. It worked just fine. It wasn’t until early 2017 that I knew things weren’t going to work for me unless I decided to start exercising. I started out by walking in my neighborhood. As the weather heated up I started walking on a treadmill I had purchased back in 2010 and had rarely used. I have now gotten up to walking at least 2.5 miles each day with an occasional 3.1-mile walk to show myself that I can walk a 5k if I wanted to. I also have started doing gentle Hatha yoga. I enjoy it and have plans on doing more as well as getting stronger in my practice. I’m currently at 206 pounds, and I am dreaming of the day I can get to underneath 200 pounds. I know it will come. This is just the first way I’m rewriting myself. I’ll get into other ways in other posts.